This Christmas season is starting off on a bad foot. I am so grouchy and anti-Christmas right now. I don't want to go shopping and battle crowds of people. I don't want to spend money I don't have. I refuse to carry a balance on my credit card anymore. I don't want to buy things for people that they don't need or want. I don't want to fill up our house with more toys and crap.
I am trying to keep in mind the 'reason for the season' and God's love for us. I want to donate and volunteer and help people less fortunate. I just feel that I have nothing to give and no time to give either. It's frustrating.
On the radio this morning on the Christian channel, they were talking about 'Global Gifts' that you can give to people in 3rd World countries to help them and that really caught my attention. I want to try it out. You can donate money to buy people or villages a chicken, a fishing pond, a cow, a year of school for a child, etc. Now that's a present!
Baking cookies or making bread sounds like an affordable gift too that I might try out too. And just tote it with me on the plane to go home. yikes.
I am peeved with my commute, going to work and dealing with Boss Man too. Aggravating. I really try to keep it all in perspective, but it is not easy this week. My patience is very thin with everyone and everything. I pray for comfort and insight and energy to sustain me. Oh, and enthusiasm too.
Daughter A sang a beautiful Christmas song in the car this morning and it really melted my heart. She has just a sweet angelic voice, especially when singing about Jesus. I love hearing her sing. I will carry her song in my heart to get me through the day. (At least until lunch...)