Ugh. I'm so discouraged!
Last night I was so certain I was in labor. I went to the hospital at 2:30 in the morning with contractions every 7-10 minutes apart. After monitoring me a while and checking how dilated I was (2 cm), the nurse made me walk the halls for an hour. The contractions pretty much disappeared after that and no change in dilation. So we went home at 5:30 am. What a disappointment!
Since it's my 3rd, I thought for sure I knew what my body was doing and I was going in at just the right time. I've never been sent home from the hospital before! Now, all I need is sleep, but I'm paranoid that I'm going to go into labor in the middle of the night. Then I'll second-guess everything.
I think I lost my mucous plug *blech* today though, so labor can't be too far away. I'm just so damn tired, I don't know how I'll make it through. I'm so over being pregnant! I almost wish I could just schedule an induction or a C-section. This waiting game sucks!!!
And no - I'm not about to use all kinds of tricks to supposedly start labor: sex, caster oil, spicy food, nipple stimulation... NOTHING! I'm not about to have painful contractions that ultimately lead to another false labor scare. The only thing I'm willing to do is walk, bounce on an exercise ball or drink red raspberry leaf tea. If only my water would break; that's the only sure way to know the baby is going to come no matter what.
What is just totally shitty is trying to arrange the logistics like a babysitter, getting the oldest chickadee to school, getting the dog out to pee, fed, etc. I hate that we had the false alarm last night and we're going to have to call on the babysitter again if it happens in the middle of the night again. I feel so bad.
I certainly hope I can sleep tonight. I can't deliver a baby with this immense fatigue weighing me down. SIGH.