Saturday, January 22, 2011

Back to the Gym!

Woo hoo! My first day back to the gym in over 2 months was this morning!

It was SO nice not to be pregnant on the treadmill, groaning and peeing my pants with every step. (At a snail's pace.) And it was nice not to have the baby to watch over for 40 minutes.

I am 127 lbs., 7 lbs. over my normal weight, and a little less muscular than normal, but overall I feel great! I feel much more energetic and healthy at 6 weeks postpartum. A little more human. I

It seems my blood pressure is almost normal again, my bleeding has stopped, my Bells Palsy has gone away, and my drained abscess is almost totally healed. THANK GOD for little miracles! I need to keep reminding myself that I am truly blessed. Otherwise I start feeling melancholy and anxious. Lately I almost start crying out of the blue.

I keep thinking about going back to work, childcare, the chaos of hustle and bustle and feeling like I'm a bad mom, worrying if I'm doing enough to make chickadees feel loved and special. Yes, I deal with anxiety and mild depression often and the hormones make it worse. I won't take meds for it, but working out helps me feel much better. Honestly, I don't care if my body isn't super perfect, I just need exercise to destress and give myself an esteem boost.

I'm excited to start going more during the week and try out some of the classes at the gym.

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