Thursday, April 7, 2011

Sprinkle In Some Creativity

I am determined to pave a new trail in my life. I am longing to feel inspired, creative, energetic and fulfilled.

To capture the good vibes I'm seeking, I think the key is creating things - labors of love. I want to bake, journal daily, write in the kids' journals regularly, read and write poetry, short stories, more blog writing, keep trying to learn to play guitar...

I also want to try meditation. It's supposed to be an excellent way to calm your mind and bring peace. Don't ask me how I'll manage that with 3 kids. Get out of the house more and go to places that enrich my mind as well as the kids' minds. Change up my routine. Smile more. Laugh more. Not take things so seriously and be so harsh. Play more with the chickadees and be affectionate with them. Not to mention giving love and attention to the man of the house.

I certainly want to find a job again too. But I'm so afraid that I can't juggle it all anymore. I feel like I've become lazy or just lost my ambition. I am not sure I want to keep working in business either. I also want to work part time, but I have to be able to make more money than I pay for childcare. I can't seem to think very clearly lately to try to get a good picture in my head how to make it work. Right now, I really appreciate having the unemployment checks coming in. I think we could manage on 1 income, but I like to work. I have hated my last few jobs however. I'm so jealous of people who love their jobs and their bosses. I thought when I went to college, I picked the profession best suited to me. Now I'm not so sure...

So what's next for me?? First things first - I am going to be more creative every day. Starting tomorrow...

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