Sunday, February 12, 2012

I've Got a Golden Ticket!

I feel like Charlie winning the golden ticket in Willy Wonka and The Chocolate Factory!  I was offered the job and I'm so incredibly psyched!!  Almost to tears - and I rarely cry.


I wasn't about to return to work for just any job; this one fit so many of my criteria and more.  I know I'm in the stage of the initial high, but I'm hoping reality doesn't crash down on me too soon.

What strikes me as so wonderful - almost miraculous - is how far I've come in my life with my hard work, perseverance and God's grace.  Starting from nothing, I never thought I might actually come this far and I'm humbled and proud at the same time.

What's also great is that this opportunity almost fell from the sky.  I haven't been pursuing employment, I was trying to bow out of the corporate world and was trying to get my freelance writing going.  I never wanted to be a ladder climber; I pictured hard-core career women as aggressive and obsessively driven (which is not really me).

So giddy to be child-free for a eight hours in the day! My brain will be able to function again! (Hopefully).

Fears:
  • I won't live up to their expectations
  • They won't live up to my expectations
  • My house will become more chaotic
  • I'll miss my l'il chicken hawk
  • I won't be able to keep up with my hobbies
  • I won't be able to keep up with blogging and freelance writing
  • I won't be able to keep up with my volunteering
  • I won't be able to do a good professional job
  • They will find out that I'm really a dumb ass
  • My kids will miss me and think I'm neglectful

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