Wednesday, November 25, 2015

I Yam What I Yam

NaBloPoMo - Day 25

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving! I am almost looking forward to the feast and the family/friend time - that is pretty optimistic/enthusiastic for me. We're having our neighbor over with his gourmet cooking skills (smoked Turkey and chocolate bourbon pecan pie) and tasty wine/liquor. One of my good friends from back home and her husband/son are coming over too. We'll eat, drink, play games and kick back.
My contribution is garlic mashed potatoes, stuffing with mild Italian sausage, cheese/meats/crackers, pita chips, spinach/artichoke dip, cranberry sauce, jalapeno stuffed olives, Hawaiian sweet rolls, pumpkin pie, sangria (soaked over oranges, pears, grapes, apples and pineapple) and vodka soaked gummy bears. Delicious, right? 

I'm thankful we're not flying or driving to either of our family's houses out of state. This means we're saving immense money as well as my sanity. Holidays with my mom and siblings can be so exasperating and depressing. Very minimal joy and warm feelings of togetherness. Anxiety, bickering, anger, frustration and annoyance. This family legacy has led to a lot of my negative vibes and sadness about holidays and traditions in my adult life. 

Holidays with my in laws have their own unique stressors. The mute/awkward dad, the minimizing/all knowing step mom, their strange (to me) mannerisms, hearing DaddyO rehash his newest technology/app and job, political chatter, etc. I really don't like the contrived line of questioning from my step mother in law asking how the most dysfunctional members of my family are doing. Sorry, I try not to keep up with the details of their lives for good reason. And I don't want to talk about such personal matters in a faux supportive environment. My family is 'white trash' to them, so they don't understand why they do things they do, so I don't want to bother explaining it to them or hearing their judgement/disapproval. 

Other traditions that don't mesh with me that seem to be popular with other people are the women working away in the kitchen while the men sit on the couch watching football. I don't like the sounds of football on TV and the random shouts at the TV and general chaos. I don't like feeling obligated to spend all day making food, serving food and cleaning up after.  It's bullshit. 

Things that would be super awesome to round out the day tomorrow would be a morning bike ride or jog by myself, cooking with a funny/interesting movie playing in the background and no one underfoot, fun games and a soak in the hot tub. Maybe even a cat nap. 

I need to be proactive about creating the life I want with the small things I do every day. Despite all the responsibilities, carving out time for recreation, fun, relaxation and the people who lift me up/make me laugh. Being true to my unique self despite what others think I should be or want me to be. I shouldn't be so accommodating and passive. Like Popeye always says, "I yam what I yam".

As an early Christmas present to you, dear reader, here are two Popeye videos for your amusement (unless they keep disappearing..). Be like Popeye the Sailor Man this Thanksgiving and eat your spinach and stand up to bullies!

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